The Sun Starting To Rise
Once upon a time I worked in a pink-and-glitter emporium of reasons for preteen girls to hate themselves. It wasn’t about the obvious reasons to hate yourself. Nobody ever said out loud “You’re fat.” Nobody ever said “Those girls you think are your friends? They’ll be awful to you in three months. As soon as … Continue reading
Having Learned a Thing or Two
This has been quite a year. The wins were, or certainly seemed at the time, few, far between, and completely dwarfed in significance by the losses. The thing about losses though, is that’s where the lessons live. I hurt a lot this year. I read somewhere that pain is weakness leaving the body. I think it’s … Continue reading
Wearing Thin
It sucks when you’re trying to take a thing as a compliment but it doesn’t feel like it. Words that you’ve been craving for weeks, months, years, over a decade. You hear those words. For the worst reasons. I’ve struggled with my self esteem and body image since well before puberty. Many young women cite … Continue reading
Cupid, Stupid
I’m not entirely sure why I logged on. A need to tidy up another inbox, thereby restoring order to my world, or at least a tiny bit of it. A wish to remind myself that my world didn’t begin and end with the events I’ve lately been preoccupied with. A desire to bolster my self-worth … Continue reading
The Growth Zone
They say, there’s no growth in your comfort zone, and no comfort in your growth zone. Here’s hoping I’m growing. This week, I faced a new opportunity at work. A road trip. Several days out of town, short notice, strange bedfellows. “I know you probably have to check on some things, can you let me … Continue reading
The Burrito
When the going gets tough, the tough get going. Unless they’re this tough lady, when sometimes the tough decide to spend some time doing their best impression of a burrito. Wrapped up in a blanket mainlining herbal tea and the final season of How I Met Your Mother, with a friend sitting nearby telling me … Continue reading
Getting Around To It
In a world where being busy is equated with being successful, the luxury of free time can have its edges. Not so long ago, I was a pretty busy lady. Four jobs, two volunteer posts, two roommates, two felines, and a pile of dirty dishes and dusting which followed me everywhere I went, including across … Continue reading
Limeade
Sometimes, the lemons life hands you are a different shape than the ones you were originally expecting. I can’t think of anyone off the top of my head who truly expects to get through life without a single setback, but sometimes the surprising nature of the setback is what really hits. This time, life handed … Continue reading
The New Adventures of…
This time it’s different. Some would argue I’m on an adventure, cohabitation plus one roommate minus two cats, but I’m not so sure. For the first time in my adult life, such as it is, there’s no external deadline. I’m not facing the end of a school term, a degree, a lease signed by the … Continue reading
Getting faced by your fears
“This is really weird!” That exclamation was me, standing on what had been described as a giant tennis racket. What looked like fishing line but I had been assured was aircraft cord with a seven-fold weight allowance over the posted 4 human at a time limit, woven together in a net suspended about a foot … Continue reading
Journeyman Adventuress 